How I will do it.

Since pills seems to be my thing in the past….it will be with that.  I just need to make sure to do it right and not mess it up.  Not let anyone find me before they do what they have to do in the time they have to do it.
I can’t live like this.  I [...]

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I did it again

I let my blog go for over a week.  This past week has been a tough one.  I think now though we have figured out partly the reason.
My thyroid is going koo koo.  Yep, my T3 is high.  The T 4 is normal and the TSH is normal.  I don’t like being the odd ball.  [...]

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I have gotten fat again

See, what happens when one gets to happy?  Or what I thought was happy.  When he said he wanted me, to come home to me, I got happy, let my guard down and started cooking and eating again.  Groaning.  How am I going to get it off this time?
Those damn pain pills helped the last [...]

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I want to dream a little

I remember in my first marriage when I was so miserable I would make up day dreams.  They got me through my days.  I would pretend “mr right” was knocking on the door to come get me for some grand day out.  I would just dream about anything, anything that kept my mind off the [...]

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It’s Monday again

Yesterday was Fathers Day and no our youngest didn’t see his dad.  His dad golfed.  He did come home early and we all went to the bowling alley.  Of course he and I ended up in the lounge gambling.  He has me gambling again because that is the only place he wants to take me.  [...]

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Brain fog?

I just came in here to post and get somethings off my chest and found those two posts I thought I lost in cyber world that day.  I finally published them.  They were on a day that was not so great around here.
Anymore there are more of those.
What does this man want from me? 
I [...]

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To tired to do it anymore

I am just to tired to do this life thing anymore.  I guess he has changed his mind since February.  He is now hiding his phone again.  He just goes out like he is some single guy.  He said “I am not your posession.”  I said “I remember a time when you said I was [...]

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Sighing and grumbling

I wrote my heart out yesterday and some how I lost it. I couldn’t even begin to try to rewrite those moods and thoughts at all.  Makes me mad. 

Well, I guess I will try again later.  I am in no mood right this second to even attempt it.

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Just rambling thoughts

Who starts a blog and then doesn’t post it in for a couple weeks?  ME! That is who.  I had all these emotions and thoughts and was putting them here and there for months, hell, years, and now I make a blog.  Make it so know one really knows who I am and I don’t [...]

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