Since pills seems to be my thing in the past….it will be with that. I just need to make sure to do it right and not mess it up. Not let anyone find me before they do what they have to do in the time they have to do it.
I can’t live like this. I can never trust another woman as a friend because of one woman. My husband holds me and tells me he loves me and he goes no where near here and now I find out that is all a lie.
I hope one day someone finds this blog.
I am not a nut. I was a woman who loved her family. I wasn’t weird like she told me I was when I did things for him. I wanted to do them. I allowed her to turn me into a minney her. He hated her, hated I watch her daughter and son. Hated it I made little J play with him.
I was a perfectly good wife and mother and friend. Until evil came in and I allowed it to take over.
To my children….I love you very much, I am very proud of you.
To my husband no one will ever love you the way I did. Enjoy the rest of your life.
Keep my son away from that devil.
I hope you have not harmed yourself. Those people are not worth it. Contact someone who can help.
Contact your local suicide or crisis hotline instead.
http://suicidehotlines.com/
or call
800 suicide (800-784-2433)
Metanoia, a mental health consumer advocacy program has a good page discussing suicide at: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/ with good depression information, referrals, and support (U.S.A.)
PLEASE contact someone. One of the other betrayed bloggers if nobody else. You can find much support for recovering from infidelity at survivinginfidelity.com
Please, please do not take this final step. I have been there, very close to the edge. Don’t do it, it will harm your kids and leave them to the mercy of a selfish man. They will wonder why they weren’t good enough to keep your living. Please don’t. Contact SOMEONE, ANYONE.
The world will be less if you are gone from it!
No one is worth that! Contact me through my blog shotthrutheheart.wordpress.com
I’ll give you my phone number so we can talk.